oh, frozen eye of the god of calamity, the tears of blood will never dry up;

[liberazoth]

[ can we find a shitpost for a single pc with the culprit find out next time ]

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[sorathvau]

['If' he sees them again...it's a hopeful thought, but he knows there's nothing to the afterlife of a God.

Still, he'll entertain it.]

There's no use in apologising, is there? No...I'd take whatever they had to say to me.

[Maybe then, that can be an atonement.]

[liberazoth]

Mmm.

[ a sound, noncommittal. neither agreement nor denial.

is there really no use in apologizing? beelzebub can speak himself freely, can't he? just like how he can't expect to be forgiven. that ... only makes sense, right? ]

And then, after that?

[sorathvau]

I’d take whatever punishment they give me. Whatever…however they want…

[He holds a hand to his chest.]

It’ll never be enough. But in some way…

[liberazoth]

... if it makes them feel better, right? If there's— anything you can do, to try to make it up to them.

[ it's not about seeking forgiveness. it's about trying to do the smallest things to even slightly right what went so horribly wrong. ]

[sorathvau]

[If there is…]

There’s no making up for it, is there? Not for what I’ve done.

[liberazoth]

... Probably not. It doesn't mean you shouldn't try to make things less bad however you can, though ... whatever that looks like, I guess.

[ ... ]

If you don't ... usually like people. What made you think that you wanted to try, here?

[ what made him think that the risk of hurting those close to him was worth it? ]

[sorathvau]

...I didn't plan on it. I tried to keep to myself, but some people are...forceful.

[That's always how it's been, hasn't it? Others, pushing themselves into his life.

Maybe he could've done more to stop them. Maybe he was just looking for an excuse.]

I'd let my guard down, I suppose.

[liberazoth]

... I guess some people are just like that. I think I know what you mean.

[ people who worm their way in, make themselves a presence, until you never knew a time when they weren't there. ]

I'm sorry. For the fact that trying only seems to have hurt you. I know you've done something terrible, and I haven't forgotten that, but ... I think I should still say that to you.

[sorathvau]

…Why?

[He doesn’t understand; what right does a monster have to anything resembling a sorry?]

[liberazoth]

... because I'm scared of the same thing, sometimes. Maybe not in exactly the same way, but hurting the people I care about, not knowing, and only remembering after...

[ maybe it hits just a little bit too close to home. ]