[ knowing that and accepting it sure are two different things.
though it's strange, because it'd seemed so clear what he needed to do before. before he arrived here, that is, but now...
is it that disconnect most of them seem to have from important parts of themselves...? is that why he's unsure of his course again? there's no happy future waiting for him; the others who know have already rejected or are afraid of him. he can't see it getting much better...
(though there's an odd, nagging feeling in him at the notion of knowing there's nothing he can look forward to. a faint fuzziness, a blank space he can't grasp the shape of. but if there's an emptiness there, then surely it was nothing?)
... ]
Them knowing is new. Me knowing is new. We only just found out I'm someone who shouldn't exist very recently, but maybe, looking back, it ... explains a lot of things. And I ... I don't even really know what I'm doing. Even if they want to stay, it's terrifying knowing that I might be the one to hurt them accidentally.
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[ knowing that and accepting it sure are two different things.
though it's strange, because it'd seemed so clear what he needed to do before. before he arrived here, that is, but now...
is it that disconnect most of them seem to have from important parts of themselves...? is that why he's unsure of his course again? there's no happy future waiting for him; the others who know have already rejected or are afraid of him. he can't see it getting much better...
(though there's an odd, nagging feeling in him at the notion of knowing there's nothing he can look forward to. a faint fuzziness, a blank space he can't grasp the shape of. but if there's an emptiness there, then surely it was nothing?)
... ]
Them knowing is new. Me knowing is new. We only just found out I'm someone who shouldn't exist very recently, but maybe, looking back, it ... explains a lot of things. And I ... I don't even really know what I'm doing. Even if they want to stay, it's terrifying knowing that I might be the one to hurt them accidentally.